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9 Hearts and 11 Rainbow beams Today I am home, I am thankful for that. Since 2001 I have been home on the 11th of September...... I remember that day driving home and the spot where my husband called me to tell me to put the radio on and that a plane has hit the WTC tower. I listened and couldn't get the picture. Home, I watched tv and watched it for days................ Saw the 2nd plane fly in the second tower. I can't even tell you what I felt then. I cried so many tears and realized this would change my life as it would the lives of so many. I didn't know any of the victims personally , but all these stories, all these images are burned in my memory. This event also changed the way I experience my profession forever. The cockpit door closed forever. Became armored. No more kids allowed there. Intense security measures everywhere I came, sometimes even ridiculous. It changed the way I looked at people and passengers. That year my husband had a serious car accident as well and all kinds of anxieties showed up, like fear of flying and driving a car and I called ill for a while, seriously thinking of changing my profession. I saw a phychologist for a period. I started my work again and healed slowly like the rest of the world but I still have a scar in my heart. This year I didn't plan on being home this day but the universe took care of me (again), I still don't want to fly on this day................ Be safe and may your hearts heal.