Rollercoaster

I´m back home! Been on a kind of emotional rollercoaster. Took care of my mom. We were called twice to the hostipal because my dad was so bad, one time to the IC unit. We thought he was going to die twice, but today his condition is stable, he was sleeping while this night he was struggling. He had pneumonia, high fever short of breath and dozens of other things . He is 80 and very weak, he has a heartcondition ,COPD, etc. The doctors told us they were not going to intubate him or do CPR when something would happen. Yesterday My SIL and I brought my mother to a rehab centre, which felt like I betrayed her.The whole time I was making telephone calls and visits. My son Lars got ill as well today, no mother to care care of him. So this afternoon after a visit to dad who was finally sleeping and not suffering anymore and my mom who did remarkably well in the centre I drove home. More emotions home: a surprise from a very dear friend! (I´ll show you later), I also got a wonderful gift from my friend Marja which I will show you next Monday! And the inauguration of Barack Obama! These things filled me with love, joy and hope! Very moving! And last but not least all your wonderful comments on my last 2 posts with all your wishes and prayers! Not only did I come home here but my blogging family was there as well to welcome me with all their heartwarming wishes! Thanks so much! I have no idea what will happen now....... I didn´t go to Dar Es Salaam as I was called to the IC 2 hours before the alarm clock went off. Tomorrow I have to call work see what is going to happen. Hope I won´t get any phone calls this night. I´m sooooo tired I´ll go to bed early. Tomorrow I will try to visit you all (and catch up again) and respond to some things beside taking care of little Lars. But right now I just want to sleep (in my own bed....) My father Lars with his grandson (my son) Lars.